Well, its been a while, but I wanted to write and update you on a few things. Throughout this entire process, I have never stopped dreaming or believing that changing my life was possible. It has always been within my hands, but it has taken a long time to realise! I am very lucky that the people in my life are supportive and rooting for me to succeed. Don’t get me wrong, they have had their – ‘keep your feet on the ground moments’, but I have never stopped thinking that changing my life is possible – and this positive attitude has spurred me on.
For a long time, I seemed to never quite be getting anywhere fast, and knew needed to make some changes to my behaviour and attitudes to finish my book. I let the stresses of life and work take over for a while and got into bad habits. I knew I needed to stop procrastinating and realign at my priorities, if I wanted to really move forward.
I had a bit of a ‘breakthrough’ moment in the summer that changed everything. I went to the library one day to write, with my trusty coffee, and although I always love what I am doing, this time it was different. The feeling that I got from being in my element was so strong, I felt like my heart was going to burst through my chest with euphoria. It may make some of you reading this cringe, but that’s just how I felt and I am not ashamed of my feelings. The last time I felt like this about something I was doing (my love for my husband and children are something completely different), was when I was 18 and knew I had been accepted on to my course at University. The more I focused, the more I had this feeling and it was clear – I have to take action and maintain momentum, or nothing will change.
I have done a lot of soul searching over the last 6 months and have started to change my thinking. We sometimes live so far in the future that we forget to live in the here and now. We miss opportunities because we are so focused on what is ahead, believing that only when we read our destination can we finally be happy.
We are responsible for our own happiness, the only person or thing that can make us feel happy, is ourselves. We have to decide whether we are happy or not, no-one else and nothing else can do it for us.
If we are always waiting for ‘something’ to be happy, we will never achieve true contentment. We have to decide to feel happy now, and if we don’t, we need to change our thinking. Easy? Of course not, most of us are hard wired to focus on what we lack rather than what we actually have. It has taken a long time to get my head around this, but I am trying to do this more everyday, and as a result, I am slowly finding myself more able to let things go.
We have no idea what is going to happen tomorrow and there is no value in worrying about what has already gone before – because it has gone! I am trying to be more present with my family and my friends, and appreciating what I have, life it too short!
I have not, and will never, stop believing that I can create the life I want to live. By taking small steps everyday and maintaining a positive attitude – I have no doubt that I will get there!